BFF ?

When you were young and have a few really close friends where you hang out with almost 24/7 and do everything together and spend your every waking hour together and look forward to see each other and find any excuses to meet each other, have fun with each other, party with each other such as 'Agong's Death Day... and you promise each other that you guys will be close to each other forever and ever ? And then, we introduce more friends to one another and the group grew and grew.. wonderful isnt' it... it's like one big happy family.
I'm sure almost all of us have. Well, I did and at that time and it was great! :)

But then, as time goes by, each on of us go thru our lives, persue our own path, meet more people, do more things.. meet our better half, 'unmeet' them and then meet someone new again.. people started to change, our thinking changed.. and slowly it's no more 'as one' anymore.. it's more of like... me.. you.. he.... she... big 'happy family' becomes smaller happy family.. smaller groups... and some... eventually treated as an outcast of the family.

First you play an important role in your best friend's wedding... then in another best friend's wedding.. at least you still treat them as one of your dearest.. you were sitted on a 'not so important' table and watch from afar where your 'used to be 'happy family' all seated together, happy happy, honky dory.. being the outcast... Remember the song by Gin Blossom... 'Outside Looking In'...

And then, you hear people around you telling you that your' used to be happy family, sweared best friends forever, best sisters, angels forever' start to bitch about you.. or your 'happy family' members start to bitch about you and what drama is 'she' into now... under the pretext of 'caring' for you...

And not to mentioned situations like these... 'I was always there for you when you fought with her!! Now, you guys are friends back... I don't feel important anymore!! I was always there for you... how can you do this to me...???' Aisyehhhhhhh!! Pls la.... grow up la... we r not kids anymore... is it's the 'I friend you... so you cannot friend her' phase ?? Gosh... Hmmmmm...

Or situations like..... 'Long time no catch up... lets catch up ok.. I'm still good friends with you... and I'll pretend as if I care for you.... so lets share your drama with me.. so I can gossip with my 'happy family'... such good and valuable entertainment news for those of us that have nothing else better to do in life but live on others' misery & gossips...

Pls la.. don't be a hypocrite la... if you want to be a good friend... be one... and if you don't like me and have some grievances for some reasons, then.. just stay away.. or tell me right in the face... look... you are not a good person and I don't want to hang out with you anymore and I don't want to be your friend anymore... therefore, lets stop keeping in touch from now on... Wouldn't that be better ? I would appreciate that much more... at least I still respect you for that.

Please don't PRETEND to be my friend in front of me.. AND THEN go around tell others that you still angry with me.. or how upset you are with me and justify to others... you are just 'friends' with me but you guys are the bestest ever... Pls... I don't need that from you... just go play far far away and leave me alone ok... I don't need this from you... If respect is tangible.. I would throw that respect I have of you.. to the ground..and stomp on it.

Or those.. who will ONLY come looking for you if they need a favor from you and then once you did them that favor... they run along their way... and continue with their miserable so called life.. and continue with their 'so to speak' caring attitude towards you and continue to bitch about you. Go away....

But I guess it's also my fault.. coz I allow them to do this to me... when they asked for something.. I gave in to them.. so it's my fault actually... NO MORE OK? I'll stop...

Well.. I want to just qualify here.. I am not be a saint here.. and I could be the greatest scumbag and I had my faults... my own ups and downs... I may be a mean person... manipulative.. took my friends for granted... Therefore, I'm ok with people not being my friend at all coz I'm not very nice person to begin with... I mean.. we all have our choices..
BUT pls don't.... pretend to be my friend.. where in your heart.. You have all those ill feelings about me...
Why do that ? Does it make you feel better doing that... as in... Well.. Terri's such a terrible person... but I'm still her friend... therefore I'm A GREAT person... A boost to your EGO ? Makes you look better in God's eyes?
What cowshit is that ?


BFF? Pls la.... *rolling eyes*

















BFF = best friend forever....