Who would have thought...

Today started just like any ordinary day. However, the ending wasn't ordinary at all. Unless you consider a car explosion a norm.

You must have gone HAH????!!! by now huh.

No, it wasn't my car but Ramesh's Range Rover (RRR). Yup, on the way over, his car caught fire at the engine bay (thats what the bomba guy said) and it spreaded. When he realised that, he quickly parked his car aside and ran to the nearest house to get help. And you know what the 'Good Samaritan' did? This lady quickly went into her house and shut the door. What a B***H!!

As the fire spreaded, he could not do anything but watched helplessly. But it's a good thing he remember to quickly take out all the important stuff in his car before the damage gotten worst.

Well, there's actually someone kind enough (a passer by) to call the Fire Brigade Dept and and a fire engine came and put out the fire.

And of coz!! being typical Malaysians... like all of us... lots of KPCs were crowding around... watching and this man came over and ask... YOUR CAR CAUGHT FIRE KA? We were like...DUH!!!! You stupid or what??? And Ramesh, being his usual sarky self... responded.. No.. Caught water... heheheh...

And we definitely cannot leave out the tow truck guy... coz we all know that, when ever there's a car issue happened on the road... be it breakdown.. accident... aaah!!! new one to my list... a car explosion.!!. these truckers are somehow always lurking around waiting to pounce on you while giving you the impression of ..'aiya.. come come.. let me help you... vely cheap one.. no ploblem one la.... aiya......

Well, true enough... this cina man.. came from out of nowhere... suddenly just stick his name car onto my hand and say... 'want me to help do your insor (insurance) claim arr... very fast one... I can help... and the most annoying part is.. we told him from the start.. it's ok.. thank you... we got someone to do... this cina man kept approaching us and repeat the same thing every 5 mins!!! aaaarrrrgh!!! Ramesh got so annoyed and told him... it's ok Towkay... you wanna make money go make somewhere else la... here no money to make la... and cina man said... no no... only want to help ma...........

Anyway.. to cut the long story short... the car now is a total lost... sigh... very sad... coz there's a lot of memories of that car.. good ones and of coz bad ones as well... like Ramesh said.. its as though.. someone died and you reflect back of the memories... its those kinda feelings.. I feel the same as well..

We always worry and think of our car safety... being stolen... accidents.. who would ever think that it will explode... have you ever??? Not me..........

Its a good thing Christian was not in the car when it happened or else... he's gonna be so traumatised. And come to think of it... I took a picture of him this afternoon in the car... dunno why... maybe it's telling me something...

Christian in the car...

And here's the condition of the car now...

Therefore, the moral of the story is... please make sure you have a mini fire estinguisher in your car at all time!! You never know when you need to use it.. Don't have it?? Go get one!!

BFF ?

When you were young and have a few really close friends where you hang out with almost 24/7 and do everything together and spend your every waking hour together and look forward to see each other and find any excuses to meet each other, have fun with each other, party with each other such as 'Agong's Death Day... and you promise each other that you guys will be close to each other forever and ever ? And then, we introduce more friends to one another and the group grew and grew.. wonderful isnt' it... it's like one big happy family.
I'm sure almost all of us have. Well, I did and at that time and it was great! :)

But then, as time goes by, each on of us go thru our lives, persue our own path, meet more people, do more things.. meet our better half, 'unmeet' them and then meet someone new again.. people started to change, our thinking changed.. and slowly it's no more 'as one' anymore.. it's more of like... me.. you.. he.... she... big 'happy family' becomes smaller happy family.. smaller groups... and some... eventually treated as an outcast of the family.

First you play an important role in your best friend's wedding... then in another best friend's wedding.. at least you still treat them as one of your dearest.. you were sitted on a 'not so important' table and watch from afar where your 'used to be 'happy family' all seated together, happy happy, honky dory.. being the outcast... Remember the song by Gin Blossom... 'Outside Looking In'...

And then, you hear people around you telling you that your' used to be happy family, sweared best friends forever, best sisters, angels forever' start to bitch about you.. or your 'happy family' members start to bitch about you and what drama is 'she' into now... under the pretext of 'caring' for you...

And not to mentioned situations like these... 'I was always there for you when you fought with her!! Now, you guys are friends back... I don't feel important anymore!! I was always there for you... how can you do this to me...???' Aisyehhhhhhh!! Pls la.... grow up la... we r not kids anymore... is it's the 'I friend you... so you cannot friend her' phase ?? Gosh... Hmmmmm...

Or situations like..... 'Long time no catch up... lets catch up ok.. I'm still good friends with you... and I'll pretend as if I care for you.... so lets share your drama with me.. so I can gossip with my 'happy family'... such good and valuable entertainment news for those of us that have nothing else better to do in life but live on others' misery & gossips...

Pls la.. don't be a hypocrite la... if you want to be a good friend... be one... and if you don't like me and have some grievances for some reasons, then.. just stay away.. or tell me right in the face... look... you are not a good person and I don't want to hang out with you anymore and I don't want to be your friend anymore... therefore, lets stop keeping in touch from now on... Wouldn't that be better ? I would appreciate that much more... at least I still respect you for that.

Please don't PRETEND to be my friend in front of me.. AND THEN go around tell others that you still angry with me.. or how upset you are with me and justify to others... you are just 'friends' with me but you guys are the bestest ever... Pls... I don't need that from you... just go play far far away and leave me alone ok... I don't need this from you... If respect is tangible.. I would throw that respect I have of you.. to the ground..and stomp on it.

Or those.. who will ONLY come looking for you if they need a favor from you and then once you did them that favor... they run along their way... and continue with their miserable so called life.. and continue with their 'so to speak' caring attitude towards you and continue to bitch about you. Go away....

But I guess it's also my fault.. coz I allow them to do this to me... when they asked for something.. I gave in to them.. so it's my fault actually... NO MORE OK? I'll stop...

Well.. I want to just qualify here.. I am not be a saint here.. and I could be the greatest scumbag and I had my faults... my own ups and downs... I may be a mean person... manipulative.. took my friends for granted... Therefore, I'm ok with people not being my friend at all coz I'm not very nice person to begin with... I mean.. we all have our choices..
BUT pls don't.... pretend to be my friend.. where in your heart.. You have all those ill feelings about me...
Why do that ? Does it make you feel better doing that... as in... Well.. Terri's such a terrible person... but I'm still her friend... therefore I'm A GREAT person... A boost to your EGO ? Makes you look better in God's eyes?
What cowshit is that ?


BFF? Pls la.... *rolling eyes*

















BFF = best friend forever....

It's 'them'

I woke up this morning feeling really really groggy.. dragging myself to the bathroom (which is 'what else is new' for me la) and I've heard this very clear voice whispered to me... Hey!! You know what would be great??? Write something in your blog when you come back from work tonight! And when I heard that, I was really amazed and glad... coz despite me feeling really groggy, I heard that! LOUD & CLEAR. I mean... I just woke up from sleep and 3/4 of me is still asleep... esp. my brain... *usually won't start working before I have my first gulp of daily Nescafe Latte I get from the Appu downstairs my office* and I'm hearing that loud and clear. I guarantee it doesn't come from any part of my brains.
And after what happened last Sat, I'm more than 100% sure that I am not a cuckoo and I've got someone (a new found friend) to confirm that for me.

The good feeling was there for a while and then my old self kicks in with some pessimistic thoughts saying... well... that is IF you managed to get off work early enough today to do that. Duh!!!! Cheh!! What a sourpuss huh...

Even with that thought, I didn't let it pull me down and continue with whatever I need to do for the day... the usual stressful day of work... it's even more so on Tuesdays coz thats when I have my weekly WIP sessions with my clients and let me paint you this scenario ~ it's like you are standing in the middle of a empty field with nothing... except maybe a few pebbles in ur hand and our clothes of coz!!! *rolling eyes* and you're surrounded by a pack of wolves just waiting to pounce on you as soon as they have an opportunity. HAhahaha... okok.. maybe I've exagerated a little bit... but the feeling is somewhat like that. Somehow, the whole team get tensed on esp on Mon and Tuesday before our WIP session coz we have to make sure we got our stuff ready to be delivered to clients... whatever it may be or else... just be get ready to be 'eaten' alive by the 'wolves'.. heheheh. And of coz, the stress comes from upwards... from 'guess who' to me and me down to my jrs.. yeah... its bad.. but.............

ANYWAY, I have once again.. made it thru another Tuesday *HAAAAH!!* eventhough... I got a bit of scratch from the wolves... phew!! Just a little and I'm thankful to 'them' who helped me to make it through... and GUESS WHAT??? I ACTUALLY made it back home by society's measure of a humanly decent hour which is 9ish... and voila!!! now writing this!!! Its great isn't it??!!! You may be wondering why is it so great abt this.

Lemme explain.

It's GREAT because:-
- I actually have the time to blog!! Yeah... Time is a luxury to me esp. on weekdays coz usually by the time I get home from work... it's bed time.. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz... and trying to gear myself up for the next work day. Sigh. Anyway... thats besides the point!!
- I'm happy coz I'm finally hearing them and why I'm hearing them is because I'm finally allowing them to speak to me and because I'm allowing... they made it happened for me.... and because they made it happened for me... thats why I'm here!!! You confused yet???? Anyway.. you will soon find out who 'they' are. I'll reveal in due time.
- Finally, after some confirmation, I'm not afraid of blogging anymore... I used to be due to some incidents that happened before. But now, I'm not going to be afraid anymore.. coz... I'm just not going to allow myself to be afraid of it anymore!!

Terri's Disclaimer:
This is my blog... I can write what I want and how I feel.. and if you don't like it... GO START YOUR OWN BLOG!!!

Bad Day

Sigh... not sure it's just one of the days that I'll snap out of it soon.. or it's here to stay... But I'm getting sick of my job... yes.. literally sick!!
Was on MC due to high fever yesterday and also gastric.. what ever that I eat.. I had to throw up.. and I felt so much better after throwing up.
And throughout the whole day.. I don't think I had a pleasant rest as I kept thinking about work and all that. Sigh!! Quite a bad sign.. I think I'll all stressed up due to work.. but what else can I do ? I still have to face it...
Am back to work today.. but still feel terrible... Sigh.. I really really need to do something about this real soon.. I hate this kind of feeling...
You know.. the kind of feeling when you dread to go work ? Well.. to me.. its definitely something wrong already when you have that kind of feeling.. and it's time to do something about it.

Shall I? Again?? Can I? Dare I? Why not?

Shall I? Can I? Do I dare to? Should I? Would I? Again? Why not?

And the answer to all of the above is........................ *drum roll*............
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!