I created HISTORY today!!!!

I woke up at 6.15am this morning...(Huh?? Mad arr??!!) and started thinking about work.. I just received a whole lot of materials last evening before I leave for work for an upcoming project.. and I can't really sleep coz I was already thinking of what to do... how to do.. whats next.. who to talk to and yada yada yada... Sigh..

Yeah.. to those who are not working out there... you can all stop laughing ok... :p You know who you are...

While on the road to work.. I noticed that there were so many cars on the road and traffic was already quite heavy.. at 6.45 in the morning!! Then I thought to myself... wah!! So early already got so many cars.. and these people really have to wake up so early everyday to go to work... kesian nya.... If it's me.. sure die one... heheheheh!!

I finally reached office at 7.30am and started pounding on my computer at 7.45am after making myself a steaming cup of coffee... There's not a single soul in the office yet.. but then all the lights were on.. and about 10 mins later.. I saw the T kakak walking in...

I must admit I like the peace and quite where there's no phone ringing.. people interrupting you every 2 mins.. and I was able to get quite a bit done.. hence now able to blog about it.. hehe!

I told my friend Alan on MSN about this.. and he said thats the REAL meaning of stress coz sleep also can think of work and can't sleep because of work also... hahahah!! What do you think ?

The rest of my colleagues that came in one by one were suprised to see me so early in the office and said... Eh! Terri Chai.. what you doing here so early ?? Coz I usually stroll into the office after 10 almost everyday... hehehehe...

So in a way.. I created 'history' la today after 3 yrs working in Grey... kakakakkakaka!!

Hopefully can tahan till at least 5 today before I yawn my head off la.. heheeh!

A**holes & Hypocrites

I've recently came across someone who kept me pondering for a while...
What kept me pondering was....

I know this person.. whom I've not met for a while.. the last time I met up with this person was during CNY... initially I was quite sceptical of meeting this person for certain reasons that I don't really want to bring up as it was a real long story.. and in addition to that, I didn't really know what happened throughtout the story or the end of it...

Anyway.. lets name this person 'Z' ok...

Anyway, I met up with Z during CNY.. in that person's house... and we hang out for a while.. talk ... joked.. chit chatted just like how you would chit chat with your everyday friends... went out for dinner together and went back to Z's house after that and played a little blackjack and managed to win a little money.... and we said our bye byes and see yous after that as it was really late when we left Z's house... and then.. I was thinking to myself... Hmmm... it wasn't so bad afterall isn't it... And this reunion has indeed to be quite fruitful..

Little did I know after a while... that Z actually didn't like me going to his/her place.. didn't actually want to hang out with us.. didn't actually want to see us at all... didn't even want to talk to us in the first place...

I was quite shocked when I heard that... Hmmm... Wow... Z is damn good... first class actor... The Oscar Award for Best Actor should go to Z instead of Sean Penn... All these time.. Z has been doing really well in front of us... but the actual truth was totally a different story la...

Hence, I started to ponder... Why arr ? Why until like that arr ? Pretend pretend all... Sheeesh!!.. Don't like means don't like la... Just say so la... at least I respect you for that... But now I think you are such a hypocrite a**hole..

Anyway.. at least the truth is revealed... and line has been drawn... thats good... at least now.. I dont' feel so foolish... heheheheeh...

And now.. let me bring you to another person... let's call this person... 'C' ok..

I've also found out that C hates my guts... Wow... I guess a lot of people don't like me... I must have a problem... But then too bad la... I can't please everyone at all time right??
Anyway back to C.. I found out that C hated my guts because of some issues I had with ANOTHER person which totally doesn't concern C .. in other words.. it was really none of C's business as it didn't involve C at all.. ... perhaps you will go like... Duh!! What does it got to do with C then ? or maybe not....
Exactly!!.. I question myself that as well... What does it got to do with C in the first place ? Why wanna jaga tepi kain orang lain ?? *Eh! Not bad arr my BM..
Anyway.. thats C.. if C wants to get involved.. thats C's problem.. not mind.. perhaps C has nothing else better to do and all the time for that...
But then.. u know what ? At least C 'showed' me that C hates my guts .. even thought C didnt say it... but C showed it and made it a point that I know it... And I admire C for it... Although I really don't know how I offended C...
Yup! C deserves that very bit of respect from me... At least C has the guts to let me know...
Another line drawn...

Birthday Bliss

It came and went and it was good..

First started with a dinner with my work mates the night before.. they have been very gracious and nice enough to fight thru the road madness in Subang during rush hours and make their way to Devil's Crab to buy me a scrumptious crab dinner.. we had 2 kinds of crab by the way and we finished them all!!

Thats not enough. I've also gotten gifts from them which is categorized as 18SX.. hehehehe.. hence, I shall not post the pics here...Ee Lynn thinks that I need a little spice in my sex life... kakakakak... and when she passed me the gift.. she said with a cheeky grin... 'Welcome to the Club.. '.. hahah.. and we all broke into laughter... both the juniors were there and even my big boss.. (not my immediate boss.. but his boss!) was also there... very nice of him.. Thank you En.. for taking the time and join us.

Then I met up with Gerry (and I was a bit late and kept her waiting for a bit!).. and she got me book as a birthday gift... very thoughtful of her.. Thank you Mrs Wong :) and Gladys came join us later... and we yak and yak and yak till pass midnight... It was great!!

Got my other half's birthday sms right past midnight... and he's the first!! :)

Next morning.. as usual, I was late for work.. on the way to work... send my Twin sis a birthday message as well... hehehe.. I saw a nice pink (:P) envelope sitting on top of my keyboard... it's a birthday card... and the theme.. you would know by now... it follows thru the same theme as yesterday... hahah.. you see for yourself.. Very nice... and I was really happy...

Then we went for lunch in Pavillion, Mongkok Char Chan Teng.. for another birthday lunch... coz all wanted to claim the BIG BUCKET Ice Tea (it's really a huge bucket ~ too bad I forgot to take a pic) offer which only applicable for birthdays.. (Must show IC one laaaaaa to make that claim).. Anyway.. again.. it was all good :)

Went back to office and continue slogging as usual...around 4plus, my Ah Boy ask me to.. come! come! come!... as I was talking to my coordinator regarding some payment issue... so I looked at him in slight annoyance and said... what, Boy ???!!! He was like... just come laaaa..... OK.. so I followed him to the pantry and I saw everyone was there (even some colleagues from upstairs!!)... and a nice birthday cake litted with a candle... JUST FOR ME!!! Yay!!.. Nice!! All sang me a birthday song.. and of course.. cut cake and all that la... And the cake came from my immediate boss... He didn't tell me he got it.. but I heard it from someone else.. You see.. my immediate boss is a super China Man... So you know la... Super China cnanot 'loose face' and show their emo side.. not even a single bit!!... Anyway, once again Thank you very much... Eddie Soo ...

Its was certainly nice to have someone else bake me a birthday cake (even buy me one!! hehe!) at least once a year la! ~ Oh! My birthday cake was from Secret Recipe.. and it's Chocolate Mousse... :D and I forgot to take pic.. as usual la...

I mean... I'm so used to baking for others... so it's really nice to receive one... there's a teeny weeny warm feeling when I got that cake la!... heheeh... Siow one!!

AND thats not it!! I drove back from office ard 7ish.. chatting with my other half.. got home.. had dinner.. and my sis Amy came over and she got me a really wonderful book... and I love it!! Exactly what I wanted!! Thank you sis... very thoughtful of you...

I ended my birthday night playing mahjong with my mom and an aunty the whole night.. while smallie (Christian) was busy walking here and there.. being his usual self.. hehehehe!! And I lost RM20 bucks...haha!!

Overall.. it's really a blisss... as I didn't expected much... but I got more than I expected...

Thank you all... for all the well wishes.. thoughfulness and lovely gifts... You all really made my day...

Fabulous Sunday

There was total chaos in my house yesterday... wasn't a bad thing.. just not quite used to it :).. hehehehe!

All of the sudden, my house was filled with tons of people.. ranged from 1 yr old to 85 yrs old!!

All started from a swim session yesterday... initially it was intended for the kids.. but end up the adults took over thw swimming pool and only 1 kid.. Christian joined in the fun..

After the swimming session... all were hungry and my sis's boyfriend.. ever thougtful offered to get KFC for us.. and we all dig in together with home cooked fried noodles...

While the makan session was happening.. there's a mahjong session where 3 aunties were busy 'poonging' at the mahjong table..

Kids were running everywhere.. playing.. some playing in their own lil world and some.. conspiracy with each other and had their own mischief... and were extremely excited when they knew they're going to get ice cream later... singing a birthday song and blowing the candle after that... they were jumping up and down clapping their tiny hands.. grinning from ear to ear...

One by one came and ask me... yee yee... when can I have the ice cream ?? I told them... wait... Uncle Ramesh is coming back with the ice cream soon.. wait for a while ok... and they nodded their little head.. trying to understand what is 'be patient'... kekeke...

Anyway.. it was all good... and everyone had a good time.. chit chatting...catching up chasing the kids around.. talking about cameras.. playing mahjong.. playing gin rummy...

Everyone was in a good mood.. esp when issues are dissolved after the longest time.. finally... as it should be ..

Yee Yee & Christian

Heeeeheeeeheeeee.......

Anker Dom....

Errrrr.. Peace ????

Poooonnggg!!

Mabel Jie Jie.... Blow....

Am I cute ??

Blurrrrrrrrrrrr.......

Awwwwwww.... Lil Alex...

Mummy... Can I have the glowing thing ??

Little Scotty... getting ready his paper plate for ice cream!!

What you starring at.. chum ???

Yee Yee....

Lan Tou Yi :)

To all my girlfriends out there.... Muuuaaaakkkksss!!!

Inki bow aka Tinkerbell... the ever fierce guard dog... hehehe

Daddy & Son... being perason pot... taking their own pics..

Party time... Mate!! Blow the horn!!

Aiyo...... cannot game arrrrr!!!

Mom.. starring into space....

Aiks!! My chin is itchy.. hope no one saw me scratching it... hehehe!

My 85 years old grandma....

I want cake!! I want cake!!

Yayyyyy!!! Clap clap clap!!!

Pictures do speak a thousand words isn't it ? :)

These nice pictures are courtesy of my other half, Ramesh.. and also Lee & An's testing of Mesh's camera..

Good Day

Yesterday was a good day for me because:-

- No wee hours phone calls
- No fights
- No arguments
- Boss not around
- Jam wasn't so bad on the road
- The 2 cakes I baked last night turned out the way I wanted.. (Yummy Chocolate)
- I finally managed to complete my flower work that I've been procrastinating since 3 weeks ago..
- Ramesh gave me a very good idea on what to do with Alex's birthday cake
- Ee Lynn owe me RM33 bucks.. hehe!
- I managed to get the info that Wai Kheng wanted
- The Toll man didn't give me 5 cents as change and he even gave me new RM1 notes too!
- Managed to get some decent sleep last night
- Lost 1.5 kg since I last weight myself... Yahoooo!!!

So.... overally it has been a pretty good day for me la...

How about you?

Sometime we wonder why people don't like us

I was browsing the Star paper online this morning which is something I do whenever I can and guess what I came across ?!!

Voila!!
http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2009/2/12/lifefocus/3013906&sec=lifefocus

And I think this is so damn related to my post yesterday..
Here's the 'Cut & Paste' incase you are not bothered to click on the link above.

It is all about the vibes people send out. The universe does not figure things out; it just responds to vibrations. If you keep sending out negative vibrations, you will attract negative things into your life. People often wonder why bad things always happen to them or why they keep going out with people who are horrible, without realising that it’s because of their vibes.

So now we can all stop wondering why people don't like us... hahahahahah!!!

You deserve what you think

Little do I know about the Law of Attraction based on the short documentary I watched in one of the seminar that I attended long time ago said that... your thoughts... regardless being positive or negative will be released into the universe in a form of energy and if you truly truly believe it, whatever you believe in, will come true..

Gerry, maybe you can help me out here... betul tak?

Is that the reason why sometimes, when we dread certain things to happen... and we think of it so much.. praying that it won't happen... but in the end it does happen...

For example... Alice* spend the whole night being very nervous.. can't sleep and can't eat because tomorrow she got to deliver a speech right in front of 10oo people in her school.. and she spend the whole night worried that things will screw up... such as.. what if I forgot my lines? what if I croaked and people laugh at me? .... What if I tripped on the microphone cables and fell flat on the floor... what ifs.. what ifs... and what ifsss.... all the what ifs in the world....

So guess what to Alice? She went to her school the next morning... very early indeed as she couldn't sleep the whole night... so she thought... I may as well go to school early as I don't want to be late... So off she went and when she walked out to the stage right about to start her speech...she was too blur due to not sleeping the night before and it's taking a toll on her.. she actually tripped on the microphone cables.. and fell flat on her face.. confirming one of her worst fear... Alice got up... trying her best to regain her composure and also ignore all the giggles and snickers from the audience and started her speech...

Alice's voice was trembling but she went on.... trying hard to make sure she remembers her lines... however after the 3rd line.. she paused... and starred the spotlight thats right on her... suddenly.. it dawned to her... she's BLANK!!! Alice ACTUALLY forgot her lines!!! What else could be worst than these??? Simply to conclude.. she ran all the way back home and hid under her blanket and refuse to see anyone for the longest time... The end..

Of coz Alice is a fictional person here... But I bet each on of us here had that kind of feeling before and understand how Alice felt.

Why does it happened that way? Is it because we've as human has always been programed to think of the worst... but secretly hope that it won't happen? And due to the laws of attraction.. whatever we think of... esp the worst.. happens!!

When we think of something bad / negative will happen even though we don't want to... does that mean we secretly or subconsciously hope that it'll happen? Of coz not right???

But then when we had those negative thoughts... such as... Aaah.. I will sure fail the test... or I for sure won't get the job... why would they pick me... Or sure lose if I gamble.. or I'm never gonna get picked in a lucky draw...Or for sure he/she won't like me.. coz I''m fat.. I'm poor..I'm too thin...I'm ugly... yada yada yada.. you get what I mean...

Does that mean.. we really want to fail the test? Or not able to get the job? Or lose our money in gambling... or get rejected by the other boy / girl??? NO at all right? Then why does this happen?
Are we supposed to be happy as what we thought of came true? coz you been thinking that way right? So you must be happy that what you thought came true.... Or shall we be sad if it came true?

Which position would you choose to be in?

Therefore... shall we keep a conscious mind and always remind ourselves that we should be selective on what's constantly in our thoughts as it may just come true???

Simply put it... if we want good things to happen to us... shall we only have good thoughts in our mind? Unless you want bad things to happen.. or your worst fear to happen as you keep thinking about it... then so be it..
Therefore, what ever thats constantly in your thoughts... you truly deserve it... or else.. you wouldn't let it stay there isn't it???

Your choice..

A Moment at the Pool

I finished work on time yesterday and went home immediately as I really wanted to skip the rush hour jam.

And I did!

When I was almost home.. I was thinking to myself... Hmmmm... since the weather is good (not raining and not that warm ~ yeah.. I don't really like the sun), and if Christian is awake from his nap.. maybe we could go for a drip in the pool.. in Christian's actual special term.. go 'aaaming' (swimming in our layman's term la)..

True enough when I reached home... he was walking around and I told him.. Christian... come! Lets go swimming... He got so excited and kept saying... 'Go aaaming'... 'go aaaming'...

So we put on our swimming suits.. yes.. he has one too... and took his float and we went off to the pool..

Christian was grinning ear to ear while we were walking towards the swimming pool coz he really enjoys his 'pool' session..

It was pretty warm yesterday and it was good dipping in the pool.. and watching him 'walk' around with his float... hahahaha...

He was enjoying himself until an older boy came joined us and tried to play with him... Christian was enjoying himself imitating the boy... splashing around and turning around in the water till the boy went underwater and tried to push Christian... My son went green all of the sudden... got so afraid and looked at me with his eyes so huge... and wailed... 'Mummmmyyyyy!!!!.... almost breaking into tears.... then quickly came to me.. while I went to him also... so he sorta recovered his composure la.. hehehe...

And that boy... being summoned by his mom to get out of the pool and go home.. coz he was 'seen' as bullying a baby.. hahahahahah.... Kesian that boy...

Anyway... here's some pics to share courtesy of my sister...

SELF REALIZATION

The day is just around the corner and I'm already thinking.. what have I accomplished so far ? Yes.. I got married... I had a kid.. then what else is next ?
Doesn't seems like I've accomplished much isit it ?
Have I travelled enough ?
Have I realised the dreams that I had when I was young and naive ? Like go travelling around the world... climb the highest mountain... swim the deepest ocean... and so on...
Hah!! Of course the above is a bit exagerated but there's still some truth in it...
Maybe not the above, but since the day I realised that I do have my own thoughts, wants and needs.. I had dreams that I want to fulfill and they are things that I want to do achieve before I go six feet underground.

But the sad part is.. Just like any other human beings, we give ourselves excuses all the time in order to make ourselves feel better...

How do I do that ?
This is how...

1) First I convince myself that I want to get married.
2) After I do that, I tell myself that I want to have a kid.
3) After I have a son, then I tell myself, I waiting for my son to grow a bit first.
4) So now that my son has grown a bit... so what now ????

Wait for him to go to school ? Then wait for him to grow up ? Wait for him to finish school ? Then wait for him to find a job ? Then wait for him to find girlfriend ? Then wait for him to get married ? Then wait for him to have kids ? Then what ???

I seriously think, if I keep on waiting like that, I will literally.. DIE waiting...

Therefore, I HEREBY declare, on the 11 of Feb, 2009 this day, I FINALLY have a serious NEW YEAR resolution (this doesn't mean the rest I made earlier wasn't serious ok!!??) It's just that this is a super duper serious one ok... VERY SIMPLE thing... not say want world peace and all that crap... but something which is very simple.. not complicated at all.. but yet... very impactful to my own life journey....

My FINALLY new year resolution is... cheng! cheng! cheng!!!!...

I SHALL FOLLOW MY HEART AND DO WHAT IT FEELS REGARDLESS TO WHO, WHAT & WHATSOEVER.

To put it in laymen's term:-
I will do what I want, when I want and what ever I want as long as I don't:-

1) Lie
2) Cheat
3) Hide anything
4) Hurt anyone (emotionally / mentally & physically) in anyway or any form.

If I do it, it's because I want to and not because I have to ~ Unless someone points a gun to my head la... or harm anyone that I love la.. hehe!
No more obligations... for whatsoever reason... No more priority... as the only priority should be ME, MYSELF & I... and of coz my son, Christian (in fine print).. heheheheeh!

I realised LIFE is too short for me to compromise anymore.

Why should I compromise ? Does it make me happy ? IF it doesn'y, why should I ? Happy also must live my life.. sad also must live my life... May as well be happy right ??

I have decided I won't compromise anymore... Because I don't want to end up regreting for anything that I should have or shouldn't have... and worst still..blame others for it.

Of course I don't expect to climb the highest mountain tomorrow la...

But I will just start by treating myself better... by loving myself more.. doing things that I want to do... and not because I have to... and don't if I don't want to... Me NO doormat wor therefore I won't let you step all over me!!!!

As simple as that...

I guess in a way.. you do become slightly wiser (or maybe not wiser but self realization) when you get older (duh!! I'm not gonna reveal my age!!)

Hopefully by starting this, right before my journey comes to an end, I can smile to myself and think (if I'm not senile yet then), I've got no regrets in this life, and I've lived my best.